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One of the upsides (there are very few) of growing up #ActuallyAutistic where I did (Singapore) is that it was legitimately just impossible for me to understand social pressure or ways in which I had to fit in. I never once had a ‘I should do X because my parents / teachers / society’ thinks I should moment.
People from back home often say ‘oh you have such a clear vision for what you want to be’ and I’m partly also like.. ‘I didn’t have a choice? Also you all made me feel like shit for it?’
I have always had a clear-eyed vision for the life I want to lead and the ways in which I will not bend to fit in. Simply because I know there’s no fitting in anyway, all paths there lead to rejection, so why try.
@skinnylatte Huh. I'm reminded of growing up in a small Southern US town, child of 2 teachers, financially stressed, no extended family within about 100 miles, unusual religion for the area, and knowing that nothing I did was ever going to make me fit in. So I didn't try. Probably saved me thousands of hours of contorting myself to try to measure up to other people's bullshit.