:neuro: Pixy's Journey :v_bi:<p>Well.... Ugh.. Bläh...<br><a href="https://beige.party/tags/Today" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>Today</span></a> started with a bad nightmare that didn't wake me feeling rested.<br>I went to the gym and rode the seated bike. But I could not use the massage chair. 😔<br>Arwen struggled a bit with the walkies... She's been also breathing more loudly, if that means anything, and I keep wondering if my time together with her is slowly coming to an end...<br>My hormones are out of whack today, and my body is sore, my head is aching...<br>I keep tearing up, because I fear losing Arwen, and I need her for the upcoming surgery. I need her to be there for me, and I know it's such a selfish thought. :parrot_sad:<br>I tried to rake part of the front garden. It's not perfect, but my back and elbow were definitely not amused by my work.<br>I'm more sensitive to light at the moment and I get cold chills at times.<br>It's just one of those days that isn't "my day".</p><p>While I lay on the couch in a slightly darkened room, I hear Arwen breathe/snore, and I wonder if there is something bothering her... If she's suffering, but doesn't want me to know? (and I sob while I write this).</p><p>My today is not very bad, just painful and filled with sad emotions...</p><p>I may lurk some more from now. Just don't want to drag anyone down with my sadness...</p><p>Catch you later folks! :bear_love:</p><p>Edit: missed some typos, stupid tears...</p>