Zee Spencer (He/Him) @zee@wandering.shop

It's been a while, I suppose I should update my #Introduction.

I am all in on the #Coop economy; and have established two coops (with different purposes) in the last two years; #ZincCoop and #Cohere.

I contribute to #EthicalSource and #CommunitySource projects as a complement to #OpenSource and #FreeSoftware.

Follow #PlayLog for stream-of-thought reviews of the games I play, reading I do, and shows and movies I watch.

Check #WorkLog for my project updates, writing, art, code, etc.

Unplugged for a bit today and actually did some handwriting practice.

Haven't done that in a while...

I’ve been doing #GoodEggs veggie #MealKit for the last couple weeks and:

1. Holy crap they give you way more food! ~10ish servings a week by the recipes; plus extra ingredients because it’s basically Customizable CSA w/Recipes.
2. The flavor profiles are more replicable! Though they still sometimes rely on “now add this sauce to make it all come together!”
3. The recipes do not include quantities for the veggies; so I’ve had to write the proportions down.

#FoodLog

One of my book clubs decided to start doing comics so I’m reading #Saga for the first time.

Just finished Volume 1, it packs a lot into a very tight container. I’m sure I have the stomach for it but oof owie.

#ReadLog #PlayLog

I must be officially an old because I fell down and now every thing hurts :X

So, each time I go to therapy I have a depressive episode that lasts 0~4 days; ranging from light 'blerg' to 'I am not capable of preparing food for myself.'

Is this something other people experience? My therapist says it's because it's working; but I've been in therapy before and it's never been like this.

Well, guess today is a sporadic overwhelming grief day.

#FeelsLog

All I really want is a cutie to cuddle with and play games and read books so time off is shared rest :(

#FeelsLog

It's wild how much can get done when folks come together for ~2 hour windows!

5. Fixed a bug in passwordless authentication for custom domains: https://github.com/zinc-collective/convene/pull/223
6. Reduced some flakiness in CI: https://github.com/zinc-collective/convene/pull/225
7. Re-enabled logging in development: https://github.com/zinc-collective/convene/pull/219
8. Cleaned up some more of the passwordless authentication rough edges: https://github.com/zinc-collective/convene/pull/220
9. Wrote clearer copy for what we want to say through the authentication flow: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1Dj6I_u1MaLM_OTxHC4PFqM6BVGo2s33jqF-_OTab2mU/edit#

#WorkLog #ZincCoop #Convene 

This morning and last nights #Convene work-sessions were super productive!

We:

1. Built an Architecture Diagram: https://miro.com/app/board/o9J_lLrbz1g=/
2. Started writing some User-Guides: https://github.com/zinc-collective/convene/pull/222/
3. Made it easier to use `byebug` or `pry` when using `bin/run` to run the project: https://github.com/zinc-collective/convene/pull/224
4. Started allowing folks to tailor their identity presentation a space-by-space level (https://github.com/zinc-collective/convene/pull/221)

#WorkLog #ZincCoop

I'm not great at ether of these things.

I tend to fall into self-flagellation (fighting myself) or over-extension (fighting the world); and I also assume other people don't see what I'm seeing/understand where I'm coming from, which leads to dismissiveness.

Part of the work is identifying the events, mindsets, and gaps that prompt these responses and building a firmer foundation through reflection and education.

When we move into the justification of our beliefs or behaviors or into defense of our identity because we don't like the flavor of what's being communicated, we shift the costs of emotional labor onto those around us.

So much of mature masculinity and a healthy relationship with whiteness is learning to:

1. Hold our identity and feelings with care and attention, not self-flagellation and repression
2. Be generous in what we accept from non-white/non-masculine folks; regardless of it's format.

An emotional maturity test for fellow white dudes:

How do you respond when you're critiqued? When feedback is delivered angrily or in a clumsy, unpackaged way?

Can you sit with it and seek the truth that prompted it? Was a fight/flight/freeze response provoked?

So much of toxic whiteness and masculinity manifests as a rejection of reflection in favor of action.

Nothing says “I’m on a morally strong foundation!” like dropping slurs in random folks mentions in defense of a serial harasser. Instance blocked.

Halp, I have finished all the books for my April book clubs!

4. There is no “good” or “evil” characters, while there is definitely an antagonist who slips further into fear and ire and protagonists that waver between hope and compassion.
5. A character with chronic pain features prominently, which isn’t something I’d seen before.

Pick it up if you want a dose of African-futurism that’s gritty and warm at times. Bear in mind the writing style is visceral, and this is not a “Warm and Fuzzy” book.

#ReadLog #PreyOfGods #NickyDreyden