Dani K. @dani@wandering.shop

My partner made milk bread buns and we had kimchi hotdogs for dinner. So good.

I read Black Tides of Heaven (after reading Red Threads of Fortune) but I'm having trouble collecting my thoughts these days. I'll just say this: knowing the outcomes of everyone's lives made certain scenes (pregnancy announcements, delays in visiting the niece) extra loaded and weighted with emotion. I felt a dread and sadness as they traveled to answer the summons at the end, knowing what it must mean. #SFFBookClub

Started a reread of LOTR. It’s been some years since the last time I’ve done this and I’m looking forward to it. Listening to an album that was on repeat back when I first read it and I’m curled up with the pups in a blanket and feeling nostalgic and comforted.

Much needed.

In a weird last day of an effed up week, I just got a random phishing message from a former abuser. Always nice to see someone’s name pop up in your notifications like that, right?

Checked on the FB page of a friend from my teen years who is vocally MAGA to see what she had to say about yesterday's events. Totally posting the "they were antifa posing as Trump supporters" conspiracy bullshit. And I'm just---how----what---? There are clear photos of their faces? Of cops posing with them? Of them destroying property? And not being arrested? Why haven't they been arrested if they are antifa and have been identified? The confirmation bias runs so deep.

Why is it that every time I wash my sheets I forget to put them into the dryer until right before bed?

So leaving those dance-dance-groove tunes on that playlist to stand amidst the more dramatic songs is good practice for me.

I have a history of finding it difficult to be open about what I enjoy, which I think stems from being the odd one out in multiple ways for most of my life -- and getting weird looks for my tastes (e.g., growing up half-Asian around almost no Asians and loving discovering Asian food, having my nose in a book around sporty friends, climbing trees and playing in the mud around prim city folk, etc).

A handful of my music friends from a Slack I'm part of collaborated on building a playlist for each other of songs we enjoyed from last year. Some are musicians, have worked in the industry, have been music critics, etc. I was the last (so far) to add songs to the list and didn't listen to it before adding mine. Theirs are mostly "serious" and mine are mostly "hey let's dance and groove, baby" -- a clear reflection of what I needed to listen to get through the year.

Even though I started both of them prior to the break.

I finished playing Borderlands 3 (120+ hours) and re-reading Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell (1006 pages) in the last couple of days. Sorta puts a very slight emphasis on reaching the end of my winter break.