death
Also, I haven't been talking about it in some spaces (like this one) because it feels... I don't know. It feels strange. Grief is already weird, and grieving in any kind of public way is also weird. Anyway, I'm ok with missing the funeral and he's ok with me missing the funeral but I'm still having some complicated thoughts about rituals and performance and just... stuff.
My dad is doing ok so far. I wish like crazy I could just teleport. That would solve a lot of problems right now.