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I was doing a lot better this morning, but not good this afternoon. I have at least forced myself to do a couple of necessary things, including starting a bean stew thing in the instant pot, so I will at least have nutritious food for a few days.
I'm angry at the injustice done to me. Knowing that the perpetrator of the emotional injustice has a much more messed up brain than I do helps a bit. I do feel compassion as well as hurt/anger. But they will forget and move on faster than I will.
Next went to a famous potter's 100th firing fest thing (at least the 100th of this particular kiln). I bought a mug, which I'm happy with. His famously huge pieces are way out of what I can comfortably afford. A friend who lives in that area met me there briefly, but her spouse was not up for it, and I feel a bit sad about that. But I totally get it.
I haven't touched a piece of clay in a while but may fold some paper.
Super-tired, but somewhat dehydration? I went to a local art fair, bought some local art. One thing about having brightly dyed hair is that people interact with me more. And by that I mean women of all ages. I'm so shy that it's nice (and I love my hair color.) I talked to one artist about my favorite origami designer, and another about ADHD (she sort of invited me to a support group?)
and now I'm eating some stale trader joe's mini-brownies and drinking watered-down no-pulp orange juice. One of those things at least has potassium and vitamin c of course (but with my bp meds, I need to consume more potassium.) It's not the best flavor combination so I need to just stop eating brownies.
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I think I got at least some appetite back. Other than that I am getting by in time increments that are less hard.
I might get a little high. When I'm down it doesn't help, so why waste it. otoh it might be too much work to figure out what to grind up next. It's like my daily morning battle with how much caffeine do I want/can handle.
Started a new #knitting project with yarn I got at SAFF years ago, but the pattern involves counting and paying close attention. Started over once so far with a different needle size, but also b/c my count was off within the first inch. It will be pretty if I don't keep missing yarnovers.
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Also I am scared and have no one to talk to and don't want to stress other people out.
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I will likely need follow up colonoscopies more frequently than I would with no polyps. The hardest thing about this is that I am alone and for these procedures, someone has to drive you there and back and wait for you. I don't have a person I can always count on, and that is one of the harder mental/social difficulties in life for me. I love living alone, but I am too isolated for my own good and find it difficult to go from acquaintances to 1-1 friends.
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Colonoscopy was fine I guess, but they did remove 2 precancerous polyps, but assured me I do not have colon cancer. Polyps are pretty common esp at my age, and they take a decade or more to grow into a cancer if they ever do, which is not even likely. Colonoscopies are important b/c they remove potential cancerous stuff as well as inspect. However I will be waiting for the pathology report for a week or 2 and trying not to freak.
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The prep for tomorrow's colonscopy has begun, and I am not enjoing it. No solid food today, and the laxatives are doing their thing. I don't need to start drinking the other concoction until later on today. But I have jello, that is a clear liquid. I think by tomorrow I am going to hate the flavor of artificial orange forever.
I got my copy of the Arcane Bullshit tarot/oracle. 105 cards! They are b/w and i may do some coloring on them. I haven't tried reading with them yet; just looking at the deck is weird. #tarot
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Andy had anormal 💩 !! And no vomiting since yesterday. He's on so many meds, mostly for the gastro symptoms. He hates the oral liquid gabapentin, though. He's eating pretty well. A few more days and I can start giving him some of his regular food.
Bohemian Gothic tarot- four of swords. Oh yes. #tarot
potter, knitter, programmer, hermit, tarot reader, not necessarily in that order. Going to try to be more social! #mefite
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