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The rain came. I can confirm the gingkos are totally bare, some still with yellow carpet, most with khaki.

Along the tracks in Mountain View stands a line of ginkgo trees, bent slightly, not by Diablo winds or ocean gales but the punctuated wakes of trains.

In fall, they glow Suessian yellow, bright as torches in the early sundown. How strange that the trains bend the tree but the leaves remain. Waiting, I suppose, for the absent rains to pull them down.

"an hour in the shower is the best that you got" https://open.spotify.com/track/18XPe3ppnZ09SAP6YFPquX?si=x1CVyy4IRe2yE3Zhmf6A3w

it's dark out, nothing matters, there is nothing to look forward to for at least six more months, I just do a shitty job at work and parent my kid

(especially now, because there was a COVID case in my kid's daycare class and we're doubly quarantined now with no childcare)

but sure, introduce your brand new girlfriend to our kid, why the hell not

like, a clean financial and legal break and half custody with some flex (e.g. if either parent gets sick)

and for my ex to quit thinking we'll ever get back together

that would be cool too

"what do you want out of your divorce?"

to be divorced, lol

splitting holidays custody during a pandemic:

halloween: dgaf
thanksgiving: dgaf
christmas: dgaf
new year's: dgaf
passover: dgaf
kid's birthday: grit our teeth and bear it together

6th anniversary with boyfriend. He sent me a sweet note before I even realized what day it was.

It's his longest-lasting relationship to date, and he doesn't see that changing.

It's not my longest-lasting relationship yet, but I'd like it to be.

🥰

Daycare is calling ex and I in for a parent teacher conference next week because of “behavioral and physical concerns” about our kid.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa guilt.