Ahh my friends are (surprise!) going to stay here tomorrow night before we go look for the last mushrooms of the season!
and I'm really happy to get to spend the time with them but the house is a *disaster*. At least I cleaned the bathroom this week! But the guest room is 3-4 feet deep with piles of stuff (mostly craft supplies and seasonal clothing)🤦🏼♀️...I'm going to be busy for a while.
Ugh I should have been able to guess this answer - I can switch courses but it's going to cost a non-trivial amount of money. Same amount as if I were to quit completely.
I will use my mentor meeting later today to talk about this for sure.
I think doing this bootcamp was a terrible mistake 😖
I can't remember ever having cried this much over a course, not even stats. I do not enjoy solving problems. I do not understand what is going on 80% of the time. On days when I have brain fog I can't even follow the answers I'm copying from someone else. Everything might as well be written in Cyrillic.
I have brain fog a lot and I don't think I will be able to do an actual thinking job even if I do manage to fake and cheat my way through.
Behold, my corncakes
Honestly I've made worse decisions
This reminds me how I once dated a guy almost entirely because he reminded me of Alan Ruck.
I requested a different bootcamp mentor. I was really hesitant to do so. I felt like it was my idk duty to make the best of what I was assigned but but but... I want someone who I feel comfortable talking to. I had an evaluator this evening who was just so easy to talk to, and I want more of that. Not an old white guy who I have to school on inclusivity. I guess I just feel guilty like it's my duty to school old white people but can't I save that for after I have an actual job?
sometimes I hate learning -
I hate when the lessons are easy but the assessment is a hundred times more difficult. Where the fuck am I supposed to have learned this stuff?
This is why I failed o chem 2 and Calc 2 a million years ago, I didn't know how to learn beyond the syllabus/lessons then and I still don't know now.
when it rains, it pours (socially)
Oh! And this 20-year-ago friend was my first ever DM! 2nd edition probably? Could've been 3e I suppose but idk, it would've been very new.
That feels like at least three lifetimes ago. Maybe four. I last spoke to them 11 years ago almost exactly! My heart is full just thinking of them, they were one of the first people I really adored without reservation - and I'm just so bad at keeping in touch.
She/they/eir nb. PNW.
Mostly posts about boring daily stuff.
Pics of cats, gripes, idk
ASD, ADHD, EDS, BLM, ACAB
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