Merricat @CorvusRobotica@wandering.shop

I want a nap

Finally I'm starting to really dig into expanding my beloved mug collection which is something that genuinely triggers my ptsd days (I lost most of my belongings moving here from England, it affected me more than I thought it would)

Then I nabbed a dress that's like... I feel like I have bought this dress ten times in my life, you know what I mean? Like, this is the dress that reflects my little goth heart. Black and tight and perfect to rest crystal necklaces on.

No one buys me flowers and I love flowers. Then I bought some things I needed like uunderwear which I'm not gonna show off, but I got a really floral cute set from Monki! Also these. LOOK AT THEM

PTSD has been kicking my butt because of all the new changes in my life, it's settling a bit, but I'm still having hard days, so yesterday I decided I buy myself some nice things! I started off with buying myself some fresh flowers

Today my PTSD voke up and chose violence. What a shit fucking day, I got nothing done an d I'm still vibrating.

I really love this last one, I wish I was better at art so I could do it right, this would be such a good art for my master project as well.

Morning

heart art

brain off, paintbrush in hand. I have lady Macbeth levels of red ink on my hands

MY NEW NOTEBOOK CAME.✨ I've been buying Midori notebooks since 2016 and my goal is always to organically make it as dirty and used looking as possible so it's always in my bag. My last one has 10 pages left so I might finish it today as a treat

went to visit my bubble friend yesterday, it was nice, crashed hard to sleep when I got home and today I'm having ab it of a crash day before getting back to work.

Might spend it reading fanfics

I've gotten some direct responses and some DM's telling me to "Go To The Furries" about my master thesis and while absolutely delighted about the suggestions, I feel like the way it's been worded to me is like "Go on a quest to find the mythical Cave of Furdom, there you will find the Sphinx Catgirl and she will ask you a riddle, if successful you will be taken to the Oracle."

Let me be clear, I would do this.

ALSO if you are queer and have feelings about any type of art of literature pertaining to this idea of experiencing queerness through bodies or lenses of electronic platforms, then please also get in touch, perspectives are so important to me.

Like, Porpuntine Hearthscape, Shelley Jackson, Ana Anthropy, Legacy Russel etc are all creators I'll be reading for my thesis and who sparked this idea.

✨ Request ✨

I've started my Master, my research question so far surrounds the idea of what electronic platforms add to the portrayal of queer bodies as others, often intermingling with beastly and monstrosity metaphors (often very positively)

I want to find queer creators of electronic art with a focus on body or emotional experiences. Twine hypertext, games, bots, poetry online, even twitter feeds or instagram.

If you wanna talk then DM or email ceciliewriteswords@gmail.com

Yesterday was date night, it was very nice, bit tired today